I got hit with the flu…BAM!
Jan 7th, 2007 by Michelle
I feel like I just got mugged. My whole body aches, I been falling asleep all day, I got the shakes and I am dizzy. I want to wash my sheets so bad because I think this is just the beginning of it. This is the shitty thing about being a single mom, no one to help and a tween who is in his own lil world.
I want to take a shower but I am afraid that I will fall flat on the bathroom floor and no one will be able to help me. I figured out I have an excuse for everything. I am afraid of everything. I laugh that I used to be afraid to go into our meat market because I didn’t know who went there or what to expect. The same with the cafe next door. Luckily a year later I went in after a friend told me about their freezer specials. I am afraid to walk my dog because I am afraid of collapsing away from home. I guess I have this fear of fainting. Maybe because when I have an anxiety attack or panic attack I get dizzy and light headed. BTW I never fainted from a panic attack but in my mind it will happen.
So I guess I will attempt to wash my sheets. Sigh.
