Anxiety Sucks! - Learn how I control my anxiety and stress in life!

I always thought of myself as being acommidating, sometimes to a fault. I remember as a teen hiding family secrets from everyone just to keep peace in my family. I am not talking little “Johnny stole a cookie” I am talking BIG secrets that are part the reason I am on the meds I take today. I am tired. No longer will I be the glue to hold what little family I have left. I don’t care if they all fight them selves to the ground. I don’t care if everyone gets divorced or what they do or don’t do. I don’t care. I have been under unbelievble amounts of stress living with my family. Some days I wish I was a camping type person and have actually thought about the idea a few times. I would go stay on a campsite if I didn’t rely on the internet and modern technology. Plus I hate mosquitoes. But I understood to a very vague point when I was told I can not drink their coffee. OK so I go to McDonalds and get coffee. $1.61 no big deal. Now I get bitched at for spending money. Today I get bitched at for using the bottle water so guess what. I dont care. I will buy my own water.

I dont care if I have none of my own possessions on April 7th. Just to be able to have PEACE with my son and my animals is good enough for me. I don’t care if I can’t pay the $250 security deposit to transfer my elec there. I will sit in the dark. I just want to get the hell out of here.