Soo,,,,You ever have one of those days when you ar…
Apr 12th, 2007 by Michelle
Soo,,,,You ever have one of those days when you are just not comfortable no matter what you do? I am having one of those days. Today is my last day off this week so I wanted to purposely spend time doing something fun or relaxing that was non work related. I did take care of some little things, like my cell phone does not ring so I never know if I am getting a call so Tracfone is sending me a new one free of charge. I thought that was very cool. I am almost done unpacking and did more of that today. I have a million loads of laundry to do and no where to put it. I miss my dressers and my whole bedroom suite. I am starting over from ground zero again and it truly SUCKS! I will get back to where I was before, I just need to develop of better plan of action to get there.
Two nights ago I had the worst panic attack I have had in years. I came very close to calling 911 and this one lasted for HOURS! I could not breathe, my chest was feeling like an elephant was sitting on it, I was dizzy, sweating, my arms and legs had pain shooting through them. Then of course the feeling of doom. Just when I thought my panic attacks were under control a big one has to come back and bite my ass. I spent the whole next day so worried I was going to have another panic stricken night that I drove myself crazy. The sad part of me having panic attacks of this magnitude is I have no one to call. I have agoraphobia and social anxiety to thank for that. I am going to sign up for this free sign language class at a local cafe here in town. Maybe I will meet some good people there. Plus it will help my son out who is partially deaf.
Well I guess I will make some coffee and see what is on LifeTime TV before Kenny gets home from school and demands to watch TV in the living room 
