Well, my anxiety levels have been through the roof…
Apr 26th, 2007 by Michelle
Well, my anxiety levels have been through the roof. It is affecting my every day life. My job says I overlooked my schedule and didn’t show up for 1 hour of my shift and now I have a final warning about not calling in when absent. It was a honest overlook on my part but they don’t care.
My mom is in the hospital. She had a total hip replacement. The surgery went well. I feel like crap. I have been wanting to go see her but everytime I get ready to go I have a upset stomach and then I am in agony and sick for hours. The last time I was in the hospital to visit is when my son died. Thats the only thing I can think of that is making me ill to see her. I don’t know how to tell my parents that I am so messed up I cant go see my mom in the hospital. It’s not only her, I have tried taking my son to the ER for asthma and have walked out 15 minutes later.
My dog is staying here with me while my mom is in the hospital. Until I can afford the $400 pet deposit he is staying with my parents. Even having him here is a big adjustment that was causing anxiety. First I was suposed to give him away to someone then my dad said he would keep him, I guess all the changes with him had me totally upset. Lately I can’t handle much change but I know in order for me to advance I NEED to make changes. I had a panic attack in Albertsons (Grocery store) because I had to make decisions about which brand to buy of every item on my list.
Oh and my sons school. Don’t even get me started there! To make a very long story short. I am homeschooling my son next year. Florida has virtual schools where kids can attend and it is still considered public school. I am going through the paperwork now to get him enrolled. One of my main reasons I am homeschooling is I did not get a phone call when my son wasn’t in school one day this week. He was home sick and I forgot to call the attendance line. Then later on I realized I didn’t get a call! I think if a kid doesnt show up at school when they are bus riders especially then a parent needs to be notifyed! My son rides the bus. I would have never known he didn’t make it to school because according to the school, they only call if absenteeism is a habit or a problem.
On a seperate note, I know many of you are looking for my “Goals List” and it is coming. Look for it tonight 
Thanks for “listening”
