My safe haven..here
May 11th, 2007 by Michelle
Well..I awoke 30 minutes ago with a start of a panic attack. My TMJ is acting up today. When something is not right I fear the worst that something more serious is happening to me. So now that I am awake at now 5:12 AM I am in a full blown panic attack so if this post don’t make sense you know why. Writing for me is therapeutic. I have so much going on now. My Mom just got out of the nursing home and now that she is home she sounds like she is worst and can’t even talk on the phone, just a few days ago she was fine, so that is on my mind. I am worrying that I wont be able to work because my jaw hurts to move and I been trying really hard to work overtime/ or at least 40 hours now I fear I wont be able to. I also only have 5 Lexapro pills left and no refills, I have to see the dr before I can get more and I have no med insurance. The pills are $80 the visit is $65. Right now my chest bone hurts and my stomach is upset. I keep thinking that its my heart, I need to lose weight etc. I just took a 1/2 of a xanax..Will try and lay down..
