Anxiety Sucks! - Learn how I control my anxiety and stress in life!

Well I took my last 2.5 mg of Lexapro and I notice some small changes every time I reduce my dose that last for about 2 days. The symptoms are just general anxiety but no worst than when I was taking the full lexapro and definitely not as bad as when I was taking Paxil! The good thing is I have only been on Lexapro a few months. Most of my problems are at night, that is when my anxiety is worst. I guess I could take a Alprazolam (0.25 mg) to take the edge off but I really am trying not to. So I have been just getting up, have a cup of tea or take the dog outside, I do what I got to do like put my phone next to me in case I feel the urge to freak out and call 911 (Which I never do).

One good thing about being off from my antidepressants is I see the whole anti-depressants thing in a whole new light. While I was taking anti-depressants especially Paxil, I thought I could not live without it! I honestly thought that I really needed to keep taking it in order to live, but there were days (many) that I could not get out of bed and when I did it was such a struggle that I did the bare minimum just to get through the day. My housework suffered, my work suffered, life was hard. So I got to thinking that I am taking all these meds and they are not working, why am I breaking bank to try and get them? I was so afraid of getting off Paxil, I have read so many horror stories about Paxil withdrawal and there are some pretty bad side effects but once you get through the worst part you will see life in a whole new perspective!

I been watching videos today on YouTube and I searched “Lexapro”. There are a LOT of young people on cam crying about how depressed they are and how they are trying to get their meds and can’t because it is so expensive. Some are “emo” and into cutting or other destructive behavior. I wonder if depression and anxiety is the new “Cool” disorder for teens and young adults? If so they need a new hobby because when they are older freaking out with panic attacks and anxiety is no longer cool, especially when you are a single mom to a special needs son like me and your rent is over $1000 a month.

I have been TRYING to reduce my anxiety by lowering my bad carbs which raise my blood sugar which gives me panic attacks also, so I am eating more protein, dairy and less breads and sugar. So far it is working. I am such a bread junkie, I LOVE bread. I rarely use sugar and prefer splenda but I am trying to switch from splenda to the raw sugar and from diet coke to the new Jones soda which is made from cane sugar and not corn syrup but we will see how that works on my anxiety. I have been eating more salads which I have always loved anyways.

Well I need to straighten up a bit, I moved my office into a new room to get it out of my bedroom so I can separate work from my sleep area. Since I work at home that was a must and I doubt I would have had the energy to do it while I was on Lexapro.