Agoraphobia is gone..Now What?
Oct 16th, 2007 by Michelle
I know it’s been a while since my last post. I am sorry, for all of you who subscribe to my blog. I have just been feeling really unmotivated. It’s hard to explain the way I have been feeling lately. I am not sure if its a cycle of mild depression or just the fact that I need a change now that I have my panic attacks and agoraphobia under control. Things that I used to fear, I now do, such as shopping, dating, ANYTHING that I want to do I can.
As cliche as it may sound, I don’t know what to do now that I am panic free. I can even drink caffeine with no problems although I limit it. For so long all I knew how to do was to focus on stopping anxiety, now that I don’t have that to deal with I am mentally exhausted. I feel like I been in a coma for 100 years and the world around me has changed. I know I am probably not making any sense and there are so many of you out there who wish they were agoraphobia free but I have to say, it was hard being agoraphobic alone but now that i am over that, it’s even harder to do it alone without the anxiety. It is REALLY hard to find anyone who understands what living with anxiety does to a person, even my own family has no clue.
I really feel that I need to find someone with whom I can click with and possibly have a relationship with. That is a HUGE step for me to want a relationship again. I been on a few dates and I have to tell you we live in a F*cked up world. I could go on and on about that but I won’t lol. Maybe they are the normal ones and I am the messed up one. There’s a night of anxiety in the making, maybe if I over analyse things my anxiety will be back and then I will feel at home again. *Sigh*
Congrats! How did you get better? I just found your blog and haven’t read an old entries…
I used several methods to “get better”. I am learning how to control my stress. I did stop all caffeine but once I learned how to control my stress I can now enjoy caffeine as long as I don’t mix it with a lot of sugar. I learn to know what my triggers are for panic attacks. Also I watched the video “The Secret” and I highly recommend it to everyone. Also daily meditation and visualization has helped tremendously. Basically, if you worry about something, you are putting that energy out there and you will get more of what you are thinking. Check out http://www.themastersofthesecret.com that is a good site.
Michelle; Hey soo glad to hear the panic is under control. This is the first time I have seen your blog ,. Anyway you can link me to the old versions of it — I would love to find out what you discovered and how you managed to free yourself from it. Yeah, I’m dealing with it myself and is Sucks to the extreme. Thanks a lot and know your story can help motivate other people. Also very intereting to read your comments about things seeing strange now that the anxiety is more or less gone. I am so focused on getting rid of it, that hadn’t entered my mind. But I guess you are right — It would take some readjusting to life. It would be so much easier to date someone who has gone through this, wouldn’t it? Oh well, thanks for the info.
dave