A really bad panic attack at work this evening
Aug 11th, 2008 by Michelle
Well, today while at work, relaxing at my desk when everything was fine and smooth going, all of the sudden and out of the blue I had a panic attack. This was a pretty bad panic attack! Now I can honestly say I’ve never had dizziness with a panic attack this bad before and honestly it scared the shit out of me! I think it has lots do with the fact that I’m extremely tired. Today I finished unpacking my son’s room. That was a job that I thought would take me a month or more to finish But I was able to finish it in just three hours! So after I finished unpacking my son’s room and setting up his bed I relaxed for a little bit and then I had to deal with the worst cable installation moron I’ve ever seen! My dog literally wanted to bite him and I don’t blame him. If I was my dog and if I knew I would not get into trouble, I would’ve bit him where the sun don’t shine. This technician reeked of pot really bad. So I guess with the really bad day I had and that awful coffee I was drinking at the time it triggered a panic attack. The same thing happened last week when I went out to with my parents at Golden Corral. I was drinking some pretty strong tea and I got up to get another plate of food and I had to turn around and sit back down. I was nauseous, dizzy, sweating they face turned red and I was afraid to eat any more food because I thought I would get sick.
The first thing I did tonight after my head was stopped spinning was I took a Xanax and within a few minutes that was OK. I told my coworkers in the room I was working that I needed a moment. She told me to go to the emergency room and honestly I told my son that if I passed out to call 911 and even rehearsed it with him. So I am thinking that one of the extremely tired at the end of the day that it’s not wise to load up on caffeine to keep working. The last thing that I want is a relapse into agoraphobia. I thought I had a relaxed enough throughout the day and I even stayed hydrated but I guess I need to start eating healthier and again. I do know that when I eat a healthy diet and get lots of sleep I rarely have problems with anxiety or panic attacks. Now that I am 99% unpacked from my move maybe my panic attacks will go away again. I almost forgot how scary a panic attack really is. My impulses told me to call 911 that I knew from experience of calling 911 with panic attacks in the past that 30 minutes later I would feel fine and then want to go home then I would have another panic attack when the ambulance bill in the hospital bill came in the mail.
I guess this panic attack I had today was a warning sign that need to relax and take more time for myself. Pretty soon in less than a week school will start up again for my son. That would give me more time for myself in the morning I hope to either relax or work in peace and quiet. Normally I try and sleep for an hour or two when I have to work the late evening shift but today I didn’t get a chance to take a nap because the cable guy was two hours late and then as soon as my Internet was back up I had to log in to work right away because I missed work because I had no Internet. Then I had to make dinner on my break and then go right back to work and work until midnight.
I’m sorry if this blog post seems a bit scattered in my thoughts but blogging about my anxiety and panic attacks symptoms is a form of therapy for me and I know that many of my readers can relate to what I went through today and also last week in the restaurant.
All I’m going to bed now and I hope that tomorrow will be a better day free of panic attacks and anxiety. We shall see. Good night!
